I've had a painful week. The menopause brings its wonderful gifts in the form of headaches and mood swings...bless it!
It stopped me working on the computer and had me concentrating on more mundane tasks like vegetable prep, cooking, laundry and resting. I was annoyed at being stopped, then I thought maybe I should take heed and listen to my body trying to tell me to take time out.
I booked a HRT review, ate some good food, slept on our new sofa, went to a fabulous yoga class and cried when I needed to (when driving to do school run, generally!)
Polly (my granddaughter) told me in the car that she could see a slide in the clouds....and it was there to take me to heaven! I asked, when? Today? Tomorrow? Next Week? Next year?
She laughed when she realised what she had suggested...she belly laughed at how her comment was not really appropriate. It has become a joke now as the next day she said she could see a roller coaster (that sounds fun!) an elevator (for if I'm too tired to walk to heaven) and a vortex (to suck me up there!)
Laughing about silly stuff brings me back down to earth (thankfully!) and her straight talking always makes me smile. She tells me when she's sick of me and says I'm trying to starve her when I won't let her have two bags of crisps. She even threatened to tell her mum that I had said I would 'throw her off the roof', if I didn't let her call for the wild child who lives next door...I just wasn't up for the experience and btw, I NEVER said that!!!
Polly adds humour and grounding to my days, I wouldn't change her for the world (well maybe some days...lol!)
Anyhow, it felt like a washout week and then I picked up the ipad and did a little doodle. It didn't feel like it was coming together and then I tapped something wrong and it transformed into Eleni Harper, a sensitive soul who wants you to know that it's OK. It's OK to cry sometimes and not be big and brave. It's OK to feel crap. Find out what nurtures you, even if it's a feisty 8 year old.
I did a bit of art journalling too, using black and white illustrations this time. (I sent my Patrons some of these to have fun with too) It feels good to just play in my journal and write down whats on my mind, adding colour and images to enhance it. Nothing too fancy, no agenda. Just play.
I've turned Eleni into a little printable for you to make stickers or cut out and collage with. If you're on my mailing list or Patreon you can get this FREE.
I hope that your week has been OK. Even if it hasn't, don't worry about feeling however you do. It's all OK.
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