So here I am writing my first 'proper' blog post and it's all about that bloody inner critic!
When I post here I want it to be real and honest, so here it is:
I worked so hard last week, then pressed 'publish' and made this website live. It felt so good and I knew exactly what I wanted to do so I did it. Then.....
I let doubt in
I let that nasty creature into my head
I let it's claws scratch at my skin
After all that hard work I let that bloody beast chatter in my ear, telling me it's all a waste of time and that I'm not good enough. Stupid girl...what were you thinking?
Why do we let this happen?
This is what I want to be real about. Choosing to live my life authentically and pass that on. Being honest about the demons that tell us we're not good enough.
Why have you done this?
You're a bit fake aren't you?
You're just pretending to be good.
Why are you bothering?
Maybe you should just get a job at Tesco?
People are laughing at you.
You're a bit silly aren't you?
And I feel like I want to delete everything and hide...again. Be safe, no one laughing, no one looking, be invisible. Safe and bored. Is that better than vulnerable and visible?
NO!
So I got out my pens, paint and grimoire and set to work silencing that nasty little inner critic.
I wrote all the nasty things down....
I told him to SHUT UP! I chained his cruel claws so they could not hurt me.
Then I concentrated on the truth and wrote those things down so I could remember and believe it and reinforce those beliefs.
I journaled around it all to get it out of my head, it's not so scary then.
The art magic did the trick and made me feel stronger and shut that bastard up.
What would you do to shut your inner critic up?
*my posts aren't a long read, I draw more than I write!*
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